White Empty Space

by shz


Hi, white empty space. Has it really been that long?

I really don’t know where to start first. Shall I fill you up with the progress I’ve made with rock climbing, my pursuit of healthiness for proper weight loss or the recent adventures I made to exotic China? Or shall I just put up one photo that can say it all like the one I put up there?

Sometimes I think there’s a reason to why I haven’t been writing. Time would be an easy target to blame. Works been piling up. The company’s expanding. Alhamdulillah, projects won recently are pretty outstanding. Experience and skills walk hand in hand with responsibilities. There is almost no room for fun but despite that, I actually have a lot from doing it. You know what they say, being a professional is doing the things you love to do, on the days you don’t feel like doing them. Some days I suck it up, most days I quite enjoy it.

That would be an easy one. An understandable excuse.

When the truth is, maybe I haven’t been writing because I don’t feel the need to. I even question – should I share this little unimportant information about my life to others just because I had been all this while? Will people care? Its not like I cure cancer or banish poverty. I go to work like others do, play with my kid, have deep conversations with my husband, catch up with friends, go places when there’s a traveling urge, pushing physical limits climbing walls and go to sleep at the end of the day. Are all that worth writing in this white empty space in which every words I will be held accountable for? Its easy to find people who takes life as for show nowadays. I really don’t want to turn into one of them or have people misinterpret me that way.

Then again, I figured out that maybe this feeling and wonderment is simply what it is – contentment. I’m content and OK with just doing things and go about with my life without having to tell people openly that I do what I do. I know it, I experienced it and maybe that is all that matters.

For now.

P/S: Sorry to those who had been writing in personally. This would be my reply.