I suddenly got very emotional when I read this entry about closing up my Fotopages. I remembered that day when I unpublished all my old works, all those years of pages and at the end making only one page visible – the goodbye page. I had a time of my life and I’m so glad I let everyone in. I let you watched me play, travelled, studied, created, laughed, smiled, blew my 23rd, 24th and 25th birthday candles, married my man, held his hands, kissed him on the cheek and many, many more of things that I did in that period. Some left, some kept coming back. Some left words I treasure forever in my heart, some were silent viewers and readers. Some emailed, some bumped to me at the mall and said hello.
Wow, it was a real pleasure. I am sorry if I didn’t respond enough. If I didn’t reply or forgot to thank you. But know this – I am truly grateful. Especially to those who kept coming back to this nothingness of myself. To this mundane words and somewhat amateurish photographs. To just another girl in this world trying to live her life to the fullest. To me who tries to pursue every passion I have. For listening to my troubles and joy. For sharing my memories of the faces that matter to me the most, places I had been and everything else that I don’t want to forget. For being around, without being here. For being loyal and faithful. For everything.
I will try to keep having words, hold to my camera and grow up a good long life, insyAllah. Although I do all this only for myself, without nothing to prove, nothing to gain and nothing to lose, your motivation is the most vital. I wouldn’t know I am any good or any bad at anything without you telling me so. In this virtual world where I write and photograph, only you know.
So if you are not here, know that your presence will be truly missed. If you don’t write back, I don’t know who am I writing to. If you choose to leave, I don’t know who to share this to. So thank you for being there, being here and hopefully, being in the future.