Closing
by shz
I think I’m closing up my Fotopages.
Why?
Because I have this other website which I think present my works better.
I don’t think it’ll be the same with Fotopages. Anywhere else, you won’t get the feedback that you were used to. That’s what had been keeping you alive.
Maybe that phase is over. Do I still need the feedback?
Well, you ask yourself that.
That’s the thing I love about Fakhrul. He always make me think. I guess he doesn’t want to get the blame when I regret my decision if he gives me a straight answer.
Well, I have been thinking about shutting it down. It’s a photo blog, so I always feel pressurize to update it. Like there’s an obligation to put new works, when currently I have none. The only work in my life at the moment is my marriage and architecture. I’d love to include photography, but I just can’t pursue it the same way I did. My life’s a routine, it’s not a drama anymore. I feel dry up, emotionally. I can’t take my time anymore. One time I’ll come home with photos and it’ll be left off for months until I can get back to it. By that time, there are new photos, and then I’m confused on which I should finish first.
I wish I could be disrespectful and put any crap on it and write something to help it look good, when it’s just an empty picture, that doesn’t tell anything, that doesn’t recall any memories, that doesn’t have any significance to it, that doesn’t speak and bleak.
What is the purpose of photography, if not to capture a memory? Places, people, fleeting moments – they all alter significance as time passes. And now all my photos that once had a meaning get boxed up and pushed to the back of the cupboard or under the bed.
Fotopages is another thing. I feel like people took advantage of its existence and popularity and made it a free billboard for advert of their businesses, and my comments section became the same. I hated it, a place where once respectful artists made their names and acquaintances of same interest has long gone, and what’s left seems to me like a mediocre spot for gossip columns and where people sell stuff.
Well good for them. But long enough time passed, I found another place where I can group my works, put a title to it – sort of like my personal best. Recollection of memories, events of my life, places I’d been to and people I made friends with. Every photo made me say, “This is when…” And I love it. Am proud of it.
I think my Fotopages won’t be long. I already know what to write on my final entry in it. We’ll just wait and see.
FP was the place where i spotted you.. way back in 2004..i googled "fakhrul" (as i was searching for a long lost goodfriend)… tried few links… and get hooked on your FP. i have seen your happiest moments.. . and faces of your loved ones…i love all the pictures you have taken, and as i grew older, i know, i love your writings more… FP was the place where it all started.. sedih jugak if u shut it down.. but, do what u think best for you.A good work will always be remembered… as i still remember most of your pictures and captioned that touched my heart…Gud luck shz.
As long as you have some place to go to when you feel like sharing, it should be fine. Fotopages has been getting out of control. I said once that your heart is in the right place. That is still obvious now.
Faiz & Diana : Oh, you guys are so sweet. Thank you, I got really emotional reading you two.
saya mula kenal fp awak melalui shereen sekitar 2004,ya 2004.betapa amat gila dia bercerita dengan saya gambar² cantik awak.seketika selepas itu saya juga menjadi "gila" kerana gambar² awak.terima kasih kerana berkongsi gambar² cantik itu.terima kasih
i am your silent fan. i adore the way you snap all your peektures. i just love it 🙂
Dear Shaliza;I think all that needs to be said has been said by both Faiz and Diana. Hope to see more inspiring works from you in Flickr and Viewbook.All the best and don’t be a stranger.
Hi Shaliza,Saya kenal awak melalui FP, itu pun sebab saya secara tak sengaja surf…saya sentiasa surf FP awak setiap hari …dan saat-saat yg menyeronokkan saya melihat gambar awak , fakrul serta kawan2 awak ketika awak berhari raya…. ada rasa sedikit kecewa bila awak annouce kan yg FP awak ditutup :((..Bytheway, Selamat Berpuasa & Selamat Hari Raya, Shaliza
well shz, you know how we started and i have already told you which entry was my fave and it was on fp. i am so glad to have found you & your work then and you inspire me still ^-^but, we grow up and we move on.do what you think is best,bila niat kita betul He will see it through,and make it beautiful even, insyaAllah~^-^
dear shz, ur photos inspire me, ur words captured my heart, do what u think best for u, may Allah guide u all the way..
Shz,are u OK?Hopefully you and fakhrul are having a blessing ramadhan.Looking fwd to "hear" from u soon.
keep up the inspiring work. i adore them all.=)btw, i think we were in the same school back in primary.but not in the same class…i was ur jr.perhaps my sist was ur classmate.take care