Home and Away
by shz
I’m home.
I was awoken at 4am in the morning with a jet lag in my head. My eyes won’t sleep Malaysian time and my mind won’t remove my worries. And I stayed around watching my sister sleeps beside me thinking this is probably one of the last times it will be like this again. I wondered around my mother’s house and sat on our dining table that is filled with invitation cards and names and addresses and everyone that might be on my wedding day.
So it’s really happening. I mean, I never really get the prespective of this feeling before. I was away and all I know that there will be a wedding. Now I can touch the invitation and everything that will be on that day. That the next time I see Fakhrul’s face will be the time I see my husband’s face. That whenever I’m home like this, my sister will be sleeping alone, or sleeping with Kak Nira, our maid of 13 years. My sins will not be burdened by my father anymore. My dedication will not be his so much anymore.
In two weeks time my life will be narrowed down to this. To this life with this man I’ve loved and cared for years, to accept his flaws and weaknesses as I accepted everything that is good about him. That single life stops here in this house when he takes me as his wife. That I will be passed on to him to be taken care of. I don’t know what to feel exactly. Part of me will cry a sea thinking that my priority to mother and father, my sister and my friends will end. But the other part of me smiles joyfully thinking of the future life I will be in with Fakhrul.
Fakhrul Fakhrul Fakhrul..
Ah, so much can be told of me and Fakhrul. Our story isn’t any greater than anybody else’s stories and Fakhrul is not hopelessly romantic that every chapters of us have to be like some Valentine’s day. In fact we never celebrated anything in our relationship but this one that will be in 14 days. No date for anniversaries, no typical 14th February, no special days for us to have a nice dinner for. People oftenly celebrate love but what they missed out is that love is not enough for two people to be together forever. At least not for me and Fakhrul.
But oh boy, do I love this man. Every inch of his being and his presence. I don’t think I’ll ever do any better with any other man. I love a person best when I love my Fakhrul and I know this is so cheeky and lame and cliche unlike any other but I think this is probably the first time I write publicly about me and Fakhrul. Everything else before was just a parade of photos of us that I hope can translate itself. What I feel about him is just like those songs and poems and phrases and everything else lovers can relate to. And soon we’ll be more than what we are now.
I had hoped that this relationship will last long, but now I hope it will last for life. And just like Andy Dufrense said, hope is a good thing. And no good thing ever dies.
shaliza, congrats on your progress with love life.. May Allh bless both of you and your marriage and many many years of hapiness.. i’ve been a fan of your photographs, though i dont do photography my self..are you and fakhrul going settle down in oxford, or thought of coming back for good?
Congrat for the coming wedding!!Hope to see more of ur pics too!!! (^_^)\/
sara, congrats for the coming wedding 2 both of you.saya doakan semoga ikatan suci itu akan berkekalan di dunia dan juga di akhirat kelak, insya-Allah amiinnn.
Well you know this post is not cheesy/lame or whatever. It’s ultra wonderful. And so very transparent you deserve hugs, hahaha. Ah, you’re all jittery! Congratulations, sillyperson!
hey shaz,congratulations on ur big day. am happy for you. been following ur fp since the day u took those yellow flowers from the top with ur round ended shoes in them. so to be able to read this entry was like the the epilogue of a book. like what happens to the characters next. not many people get to live a full 8 years of relationship and lead it to marriage. ah.. jeles! congratulations, babe!!! =)
kak shaz, congrats~don’t forget to invite me on ur big day ya!~
Dear Shaliza + Fakhrul,Tahniah diucapkan. Semoga ikatan yang dibina akan terus diberkati dan dirahmati selalu oleh-Nya. Pastikan agar cinta yang tersemai akan mengharum dan mewangi buat selamanya.Sekali lagi, tahniah. Moga terus dalam kasih sayang Allah.
shaliza,Congratulations on your wedding. Don’t forget to enjoy every single second of the wedding day.
Hey Shz,Andy Dufrense was right. No good thing ever dies. Embark your new life with better things so that No Better Thing Ever Dies.Selamat Pengantin Baru
*smile*I’m happy for you. Really. Even tho we don’t know each other but somehow I can feel it.
this is so sweet…. so happy for you… and glad that i have virtually witnessed this sweet episodes for years already … and still looking forward for new season.. p/s : hopefully u can email me back.. i have somethin’ *wink* wink*
hi sara,there’s a message for you on my blog.heartiest congratulations to you and fakhrul!
askum shz n husband..i am no one..just ur stranger who love to see ur work…n i would to take this opportunity to wish u all "Selamat Pengantin Baru"..moga kekal hingga ke akhir hayat..insyallah…
hello..i went to ur wedding with my fren the other day, but didn’t bring anything for both of u and the worst part was we didn’t greet u and say congrats on ur wedding day..heh, and the foods…very delicious (a bit nyesal sbb x amik byk…hahaha) anyway selamat pengantin baru, semoga kekal hingga ke anak cucu cicit oneng and dot dot dot..